Sunday, December 23, 2007

I feel sad!

When you are thousand miles far from home, when nobody feels any obligation and is free to choose you or not (Because you are too far to blame them!) , when there is 12 hours jet lag, and different weekends, and you are unavailable most of the day, you can easily diffrentiate between the real friends and too busy! ones.
I don't know how God makes some people so nice; they know how great you may feel by hearing their kind voices through the phone or reading their encouraging messages in your mailbox, although, they have never been in a similar situation.
These are the lessons I'm learning gradualy from this journey. However, facing the realities I never doubt in them before, seems to be the most difficut part.Sometimes we lie to ourselves about the quality of a relationship, but we're not ready to change it.Why we spend several hours for choosing our clothing, furniture, foods,..., but not the people we communicate with them? Why we don't respect ourselves by avoiding people who make us feel bad about ourselves?Or Why have we used to see people, spend several hours with them, and just restricting ourselves to the common greetings; if someone doesn't like to know what are you doing in your life, or how do you feel about it, why we are wasting our times this much? ( However i beleive in that sometimes we can be the one who starts a good relationship)
Even if we are afraid of getting alone, we already are! with these types of relationships!

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